It's weekend which I'd always lookin forward to after 5 consecutive day being trapped in the education system.

... yet I wasn't in a state of euphoria these days

sorrows written all over my face

' nevertheless,

takin` neo-prints was the highlight of the day.

Victoria spent the whole afternoon with me untill at night,

I met Carmen & headed Ahmad's Chalet.

Anyway, I slept at 5am+ last night & woke up at 9.

I'm so gonna deprived of sleep

&... the pain in my chest is getting unbearable.

I don't know, I think i gonna die early. lol

Maybe I shall not have come into your life,

maybe I shall not have care a jot

maybe....

I've came.... & I shall go now

Anyone can chase the grey clouds away for me please?

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Dear diary,

I've been very depressed for the past few days, everything was screwed up.

I've been thinking a lot but I don't really know what I'm thinking. I've been out many times but I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I've been crying at night before I sleep but I don't what the fuck I'm crying for.

I don't know what I've done wrong, but I just feel that I suck in everything little things I do. I just feel that everything I've done is wrong. I feel that I screwed up people's life, & screwed up my own life as well. Am I nothing good at?

Oh yes, the pain in my chest is getting worst & worst. Well it's been so long, but I guess it's just small matter or something. Nah, I don't even bother.

Diary, can you teach me what to do? Everything is not going my way. I want to change life, I dont want life to change me. But I really want to know, am I that sucha sucker?

I really don't mind being a bitch if that pleases anybody.

sigh