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Saturday, September 16, 2006 / 12:48 AM |
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I just came home from his house not long ago, somewhat, I don't know why. I'm feeling down. Not because I've left his house and I'm home at this moment, not that we've squabble, not that he'd lied to me another time, me,my own is the reason instead. Alright, I gave his daddy the little present I bought. I saw him looking at it with rapture, I saw him smiling at me, & said a thank you politely. Well, this feeling is so pleasant. To make someone happy, to brighten up someone's day. We're rather so fine today, took a nap at his place, & on his bed. I'm trying to prevent moodswings of mine, or being unreasonable & throw tantrums at him.I'm learning to cherish every moment with him. I don't wanna hurt him again. B'cus I know it very well, he loves me. He've beg me not to leave him for unumerable times. He cried. I've seen him crying on front of me profusely, losing his pride, he did anything to make me stay. No, don't misunderstand. I'm not giving him sympathy or mercy for forgiving him endlessly & giving him so many chance. I gotta confessed, I love him & I cant afford to lose him too. I recalled so much nowadays, not knowing why, affairs that had happened recently or in the past, keep rewinding inside my mind. I told my self, I should cherish him. If I don't, seriously, i think I'll regret for my entire life. Nobody knows him better than me, not even his brothers who knew him much more earlier than me. Nobody would knows how close we are. I narrate, Benedick is indeed a great guy. As darlink had told me, I'm one lucky girl in the world. Becasue I believe it's rather difficult and rare to find a guy who will pander your demand, forgo times for meeting his ''brothers'' and a guy who will spend all his savings, wages and all the amount of money he had, on his girlfriend.Let me repeat, is ALL, every single cents. But hey, my boyfriend does. =) Much more to say, it's true that I always claim bad comments about benedick. But I want to apprise now, sometimes, somehow it's actually my fault. Just that when people is irate, who can settle things logically? Ok I admit, my EQ is low. All I want to say, I love Benedick to the apex. cheerio blog. cheerio friday, cheerio 15 september2oo6 Its time to slp. |