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Monday, August 28, 2006 / 4:10 PM |
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Is this what you mean by '' SISTERS'' ?? If I'm not of yours, then merely don't keep saying I am. In the yesteryears, I understand you've slightly attitude problem untill now. Girl, how long we've been friends? How long is the period of time we've nicknamed us as 'sisters?about 2 years? You weren't like that last time, as in not this bad. I've been reflecting on my self unumerable times, did I do anything that had make you angry? Or I even approached you to ask '' girl, what happened?'' With that ''black face'' you wear, I know you're not in a good mood. I tried to give you time to calm down, & I even took all my tact to soothe you down.Didn't I?Or did I not? But why? Why am i always the one who take initiative in everything? Every single time you frown, I put in my efforts to the peak to cheer you up. And when you cry, I would appear right infront of you immediately. Cus I know, you need a companion when you're low in spirit. I know I may not be the only one doing all this to you, but hey, at least I tried my best? That particular day, when you were stuck in the lift. You rang me up, I'm sorry I answer your call lately.I'm very sorry. It's was near mid-night & I was sound asleep.Sorrrry. I pick up, I heard you crying. I was dumbfounded, I thought what had happened to you at that late hour. I asked you anxiously, you told me you're stuck in a lift. Maybe it's just a small matter, but I heard your quivering voice, I knew you were terrified. I try to stay awake, I hope I can talk to you or try to pacify you & stop you from crying. But you were the one who said nevermind, nevermind & you hang up. I msg you non-stop, asking are you ok,hao le mah?come out le mah? I was drowsy, but i tell my self, I can go to bed unless you've come out from the lift safely. And i did.I waited for you. You saw me the next day, you speak to me, ''aiyah everytime call you all also won't answer de lah, even if I died you all won't even fucking know.'' Ha? Didn't I answered your call? From that sentence, I notion I'm not the first one you seek for when you're at that helpless situation. You've already called many people before me, I supposed. & hey, whoever you called, among them, at least I answered? Didn't I? or did i not? Then what do you mean what you have said to me? It's hurting, do you know? And now, What about today? What's with your attitude again. What's with your mood again? What's with your black face you gave me for the whole day. What's with your speaking tone, & your harsh ''Bye'' What did I do. Let me repeat, if I'm not a sister to you, don't be so unreasonable towards me. However, if I'm one, I don't deserve all this treatments. & I've enough of tolerating. Maybe we won't talk to each other anymore, or maybe ,hopefully, we can still be , Friends? All I want to say, you're excessive. you're too much. & I don't need to tolerate all this shit. I swear I treated you as my sister sincerely with all my heart. What about you? I don't think I'm even SOMETHING. *** Ppl who have read this. Don't fucking come and ask me what happened. UNLESS* only for people who truthfully care, people who's in my heart all the while. you know who you are =) cheerio blog. |