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Sunday, June 11, 2006 / 11:36 AM |
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Went to meet boyfriend @ his house downstairs as he just came back from tuition @ that tym,it was about 5+ then.Went up to his house & waited for him to change ,bathe .... actually i want to go cine with him & take neoprints,after that go to parklane.but it was alr going to be 7 when we were takin MRT to D.ghaut,i was quite upset =( but nvm,he say he will bring me catch a movie & take neos nxt wed.:D reach parklane,as usual dear play lan while i sit there stare @ the screen.it's definitely very boring when you sit down there lookin @ people games & you just sit & do nth.but it's okay lah,as long as he happy,ill be glad too. I receieved a sms suddenly & i thot,''who will it be??'' cus i did not receieve any msg from anyone for the whole day.it was baby's mother,she wrote things as we dearie was in deep touble & got me worried.The msg was something written like this, Ben,I'm very disappointed in u.I'm tired to say u anymore as my words only goes to ur deaf ear... i forgot wad she exactly wrote but it's something like this okay. I was really terrified and i thought he's going to get a big scolding.. but in the end,it was nothing =) I was relief then. I could'nt say i had lots of fun today,but neither it's boring.As i have dearie all along with me.Maybe it's bcus the short period of time being outside as we went out late. oh yah,there was a Muslim man who dressed like OSAMA @ the parklane mac.Furthermore,he has a Long sharp knife hangin on the side of his hip.i was wonderin,Is it real?=\I dare not go close to him cus who knows maybe he is a terrorist?=p dno brin knife come out for wad siaa,going for a robbery?dunno,so afraid of bangalas. baby send me home,we took MRT to hougang & then take bus 27 to tampines library.on the way & in the bus,baby lies his head on my shoulder & we were listening songs from my hp.I was lookin out the window,staring into the air..somewhat,I realise i was crying.reasons?i din wan to go home so earli & i wan to spend longer time tgt with him.I'll be only goin to see him next wed,he has to attend sch.maybe u would say,it's just a few days silly.But u all do not know,i dun understand why too but we quarrel in the phone easily,u would say,talkin for too long in phone & thats what will happen,but no,we hardly had time to chat in the phone. I know sometimes all he said is just ''qi hua'' but it really hurts from the inside.Maybe he do not mean those words he said but it was really inconsolable.I don't want us to be like that.I don't need those quarrels weekly,I knew that in the past i gave u attitude & i had hot temper.But dear,can u realise the changes in me?i gave you everything,but you threw it all away.you just don't seems to understand.sighh * no matter what, my love for you will never change. |