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Sunday, June 25, 2006 / 3:38 AM |
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How blissful can one life be.Is yours one? I've came to singapore for my education at the age of 3-5.For another reasons,its also that my dad wants to come overseas to work.At that time,I was still young.I don't have a choice,I could only just follow where my parents go. I used to go back to hongkong and visit my relatives Twice a year,but we slowly decrease the times of going back as the air-tickets isn't free.So now,mostly once a year or every 2 years.My bondings with my families are very tightly together,very good and nomatter how far we're apart,we keep in touch with each other. They almost called here every single day. But slowly,of course due to their busy working and my schooling.We slowly fade apart.Last time when I join their gathering,I feel as one of them.But now,although i went back @ sec1.I treat them as my close family still,but i dunno why,I feel that Im the odd one.hais.Things not the same anymore. during march,I heard a bad bad news.My uncle in hk,who had dote on me tkc of me pamper and always the one who plays with me while i was still living in Hk,passed away.He commited suicide.I was shocked.Extremely stunned & burst into tears. I cant even attend his funeral or wad.I cant even go back to console my grandmother who was literally so damn heartbroken.I wanted to,i felt like,but i cant.Another knife stab on my back,My auntie say im uselses.said I dont care.said i dont even give a damn to call them about it.But hey do she really know how i feel?i dont wanna call becus im speechless too,Im afraid if i call my grandmother i would said the wrong things and make him more sad.And she say me untill likthat.sighh.how upset can i be?haiss.It was the worst day or my life. what i wanna say is,I really miss my relative.I wanna live with them.I missed those times I spent with my cousins.hais. if I have a chance to choose,I would choose not to come to singapore. |