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Tuesday, June 13, 2006 / 10:01 AM |
| beyond nightmares |
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arghhs,i wake-up from my nightmare again.What de f**k is wrong with my god damn brain.had been havin' nightmares through many days. fuckked__ bull-shit,it's not about dinosaurs chasin after me or the wicked witch turn me into a frog or whatever crap-.-My nightmares are sensible okay,basically just what things that I keep thinkin of durin the day,thats y i dream about it?Everynight is a sad dream i supposed,i found my cheek, tear-stained. Silly-jess,what's the matter with you. It's just a dream! Frankly,I'm not very happy being with Ben.He is not a pragmatic person & he always thinkin on the nagative sides.Is he takin advantage of me?I feel like I'm the only one in the world feelin' likdat.Or issit I'm thinkin too much.He is kinda too officious and erm..condescendin? I can't comprehend what he is tryin to show by treatin me this way.He makes me thinks that,he think he is treatin me super good,unfortunately he's not.He always treat me bad becus he says he want to pay back what I've done to him.He always mention break becus he KNEW eventually i will go back to him after meanwhile. & a lot alots more... but sometimes,I admit he is caring & sweet.And He's faithful. issit I'm the one who is thinkin too much?I'm feeling claustrophobic. issit that he's not good enough OR I want it too much. damn,I'm so sad now. I'm going to stay @ home today i think,without meetin anyone,who is going to prattle with me today?I'll be bored to death >.< It's been hard wakin' up waking up to the truth I've been so blind could'nt see for love , no tried my best to ignore it wish the pain away~ but just like tomorrow its coming round again darling,please Dont treat me like a fool its been hard enough for me gettin over you~ so darling please dont treat me like you do I'll be damn if i gonna let cha,damn if i don't forget cha so plsssss~ Don't treat me like a fool thought i gave you the best but it wasn't enough u took advantage or my trustin heart tried my best to forgive you did my best to forget I'm done with the tears & there are no regrets I know I'll be reachin out to touch you in the night, Holdin on to the memories cus you're not here to hold me tight U LIED when you told me it hurts to be apart when all the lying you're doing is in someone else arms those parts with yellow high lighted is those real meaningful ones. but actually,the whole damn song is damn fuckin meaningful thats why i'm lovin` it |